I'm not fucking babying you. What did you think, everyone who needs your help is going to line up like a client with a list of their preferred kinks? Of course they told you to fuck off, they're beating themselves up as much as you right now. More. Considering the extent of whatever fucked up shit they've done in the last month, they've also earned it a hell of a lot more than you.

The hard way would be being there anyway. But you took the easy way, because as much as you want to think you weren't asking for anything, you wanted something, and you didn't get it.