You didn't disappoint me. You think I put expectations on anyone? We're human. We feel, we react, we make mistakes. The second we stop any of that, we stop being human.
It's for you to decide what you're going to do about it. All apologies will get you is an "it's okay" or "fuck you". Is that enough for you?
It wasn't as big of a problem until now. But this is the one situation I'm going to ask that you pick one of us over the other, and it's just a precaution.
This body isn't the body I was born in. My consciousness is stored on a piece of tech in the back of my neck. It's a metal disc in my vertebrae, called a cortical stack. At the moment, the only people I'm aware know about this are you, me, and John. I don't know if John's told anyone else. I don't know if anyone else could sense it the way he did.
If I die, I need you to check if it's still there. If it is, I need you to take it out and keep it safe.
oh my god that's why you're a white guy naked Takeshi
of course. I swear I will. I can tell Ianthe I want dibs on your corpse because you're my friend, she won't find that weird. I'll have to figure out how to install it in your resurrected body, though.
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Jan 6
hope you're okay.
I'm sorry.
you don't have to reply, just. I'm sorry.
k. love you lots. bye.
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for forgetting to be as compassionate as I should be. you were right. I was wrong.
for reacting without thinking. it was stupid of me. I got upset, and instead of disengaging I just kept going.
for disappointing you.
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It's for you to decide what you're going to do about it. All apologies will get you is an "it's okay" or "fuck you". Is that enough for you?
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it's enough.
[He has no idea if it is. He feels extremely stupid for even apologising now, but he certainly isn't going to say that.]
stay safe, takeshi. love you.
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Your work with the Deathwarden, is that a permanent arrangement?
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why?
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[But then, so is Iggy, isn't he?]
I know I can't trust her. I need to know if I can trust you.
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yeah, I dunno, they have a complex relationship.
of course. if you think I'd ever do something weird to the bodies, I wouldn't. I take this very seriously.
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if it involves death, I pick whoever the dead person is first and foremost. they matter more than whatever differences you and Ianthe might have.
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my loyalty remains with the deceased.
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If I die, I need you to check if it's still there. If it is, I need you to take it out and keep it safe.
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of course. I swear I will. I can tell Ianthe I want dibs on your corpse because you're my friend, she won't find that weird. I'll have to figure out how to install it in your resurrected body, though.
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If it's not there when you check, Iggy, I need you to raise hell.
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oh, I will. no-one's fucking with your body on my watch, I promise.